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“Thank God for Fridays.” (Bed Hair – Two)

April 2010
Perth, WA

Dear Diary,

You know what I don’t like? Sitting around, twiddling my thumbs and having to wait for work to come to me. I know I should be proactive, but when work doesn’t exist it’s a little difficult to be all gung ho over it. My parents have been complaining, but come on, you have to blame the government, don’t you? And, the media. All the hype last year about not having enough teachers has turned into just as much hype about not enough students. I wish they’d make up their minds.

Luckily, I’ve managed to secure a casual position at the Association of Science Teachers. Not ideal, but at least I don’t have to scab off my parents for fuel money. And I can pay for my own car insurance. Whoop-dee-do. That’s all small potatoes, though.

I can’t believe I’m writing this down; I’m such a boring person. Then again, I guess no one is going to be sticking their noses’ into my journal, are they? I mean, the ramblings of an average Australian woman who doesn’t have a spectacular life aren’t going to interest anyone in particular. Of course, in my opinion, it’s been a pretty speccy life, so far. But, doesn’t everyone think that about their own lives, no matter how ordinary they are?

Okay, so I’m not being entirely honest am I? But, my life is ordinary now. Let’s just forget about that three year period where I was not living at home in a normal suburban bungalow. I mean, not that it was bad…just…well, I’ve compartmentalised that part of my life to be treasured in my own private moments, too private even for this journal.

Anyway. After graduating last year, I was hoping that I’d get a job, quick smart. It didn’t happen, though. Which just sucks. But, that’s life for you. Well, at least it would be, except that ever since coming home, I’ve become more serious about my life. Or, to be more exact, my spiritual life. Which naturally translates to me going to church regularly.

I’ve found this great church in the city that’s just the right fit with where I’m at, right now. I’m not new to this. I was raised in the belief, but I wasn’t really serious about it. It’s kind of ironic my science degree was the catalyst that made me start thinking on it more. That was a few years ago, though. It just sort of came back to me in the last year. I guess that makes me a weird Christian.

Not that any of that matters to anyone, but me. Anywho, I have to stop here. The phone just rang. It was Mercy School asking to see if I can come in and do some relief. High maintenance teenaged kids, here I come…

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“I’m sorry.” (Bed Hair – One)

December 2008

Laval, QC
Pierre’s Apartment

“Do you remember how we met?”

“Hmm?”

He leaned down, brushing a lock of hair from my eyes. I could see the almost strained expression in his own as he met my weary gaze.

“How we met. Do you remember?”
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Bed Hair is Not a Fashion Statement – Simple Plan Fan Fiction

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So, I don’t often share about my writing on this specific blog anymore. I do most of that on my other blog https://50shadesofmymind.wordpress.com. However, I thought I would share one of my fan fictions on this blog, so you get to see where some of my writing energy goes to.

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Posted in 2015, fiction, my writing

The Uprising – Chapter Four [Finally!]

Dark
Robbie
‘Darkness’
Noun
1.     The partial or total absence of light
2.     Wickedness or evil
Joshua reckons I’m a nerd.  I can’t help it that I’ve read the dictionary a hundred times over.  Words are fascinating.  And I like to write.  Today’s Word of the Day…darkness.  I don’t think I ever thought too hard about what that meant until I met Pips.  He’s an intriguing personality.  Argumentative, yet tender-hearted; loud, brash with a mouth that’s probably been washed with soap countless times, but willing to lend a hand at all times.  Contemplative, melancholic but exhibiting a sense of joy that I haven’t seen in another person since. 
I know, I know…I shouldn’t tell you all this straight away.  Should feed you description piecemeal.  But, I think it’s important to acknowledge what kind of person he was from the beginning. 
I guess this is kind of an obituary of sorts.  Tough to write, cathartic though.  Necessary.  It’s taken me a while to process what happened in our shared pasts. 
You see, being the ‘kid’ of the operation was exhausting, especially when I felt I had a lot more to contribute.  I like to believe that Pips gave me that out.  He recognised the kindred spirit within me and gave me free reign to make my own decisions, and face the consequences of my actions.  Of which there were many.  Not all bad, but not all good.
The first time meeting him was an awkward experience.  It wasn’t even something I’d expected.  I was out the front of the house, mowing the lawn when I heard raised voices from the neighbours and loud barking.  Mum told me later on that Elliott’s new puppy was the biggest mongrel going…not that I ever came to agree with that sentiment.  But, that’s not really important. 
The dog died at any rate.  Lachlan ended up having to shoot it to save us…but that’s a story for another time.
I went to investigate, God alone knows why.  I’m not given to being nosy at the best of times.  Elliott was out the front with a man that I think everyone would recognise.  The face of a criminal was always made well known in the City. 
Phillip Preston.  His face was plastered all over the city; wanted posters mainly.  His most striking feature those luminous eyes.  The darkness in their depths commanded attention, and received it.  Whenever I rode passed them on my bike, I couldn’t help but be drawn to his gaze.  Forever trying to decipher the emotions with them.  Something I tend to do with everyone, to be honest…
However, I hadn’t known that he was related to my neighbour, not until the reports on the news said that he’d been paroled.  Who could even imagine someone such as Pips McGee – I’ll come back to that name later by the way…he is a Preston after all – would be the brother of someone as strait laced as Elliott Preston.  Though, even Elliott ended up surprising me. 
Elliott looked over, catching my eye as Pips, who was the one doing the yelling, ranted at him.  Something about how the guards at The Astor were a bunch of “mothereffing bastards” who wouldn’t know how to shoot anyone even if they had targets painted on their foreheads.  Awkward. 
Elliott lifted a hand in my direction, I nodding in return because that was the polite thing to do.  Elliott came over, leaving his brother to keep going.
“Hey, kid.”
I smiled, glancing over at Pips.  “I didn’t realise…”
“The City Bomber is my brother?” Elliott shook his head.  “He’s always unexpected.  Came into this world a surprise.  Probably leave it that way, too.”  That was definitely the truth…
Leaning against the fence, I observed him for a moment.  Pips tugged a bag from the back of Elliott’s truck, propping it against the side of the vehicle, still muttering to himself.  In person, he didn’t seem as intimidating as the media portrayed him, but it wasn’t as if I’d ever met him.  Not sure how that could be since Elliott had lived next to us since I was really little.
“He’s never lived with me.” Well, that would explain that…
I looked at Elliott.
“No?”
He sighed.  “Pips spent most of his time in trouble.  He’s that square peg trying to fit in a round hole.  Doesn’t fit.”  Elliott grimaced.  “I’m just glad he didn’t go the way others are…have gone.” I noticed his correction and knew why, grimacing myself.
“We don’t talk about Lachlan.” 
“Figures.  I’m sorry, kid.”
There was a pause then. 
I’m not sure what it was, but there was something that Elliott wasn’t saying.  The fact that he was even bringing up my cousin was odd in itself.  I was aware they were long-time friends, but Elliott was as sentimental as a brick.
“I don’t let it get to me.  Got my own life to think about.” Though that didn’t stop me from thinking things that I knew I shouldn’t.  Lachlan’s impending execution…the fact that he even got arrested.  Not something I would admit to spending my thoughts on.
Elliott chuckled and said, “We all do.  But, having a criminal in the family makes you see society a little differently.”  He slapped a hand against the railing then turned to head back to his brother. 
I thought about his parting words and that word ‘darkness’ came to my mind again.  Society was a lot darker these days.  And I don’t even know what it was that made it feel that way.  It hadn’t directly affected me, and even with Lachlan’s incarceration it still wasn’t something that made any difference to my life. 
Until Elliott turned around and came back to the fence and asked me if I wanted to come over for a drink. 
                                         ****
Now, when Elliott asks you in for a drink the one thing you don’t do is refuse.  The thing is, his invitation is never about the actual act of drinking.  It’s a pretext to something a lot more important.  I found that out that fateful day…
Ha.  Fateful day.  It’s still difficult to get my head around why I even walked through the door, accepting his invitation.  Perhaps my mind was still in turmoil over my cousin’s predicament.  Subconsciously speaking.  Perhaps it was just mere curiosity; or sheer bloody mindedness.  Who knows?  I walked through that door…into…well, into a neat, uncluttered space that was confronting in its tidiness.  Even more so when you consider that the abode looked like the home of a little old granny, and not two thirty-something year old men.  One a bounty hunter and the other a criminal.
Flower-printed pottery lined the bench and the fresh aroma of…
“Is that bread I smell?” I asked, stupidly. 
Elliott’s lips twitched in a semblance of a smile.  “Baked it this morning.  Pips eats it.” 
I nodded, casting my eyes around the room.  A small round table took up the central area with three chairs spaced around it.  The glass top reflected the light of a row of globes that hung from the ceiling.  The most notable objects in the room though were upon that table.  Weapons.  Firearms of assorted variety.  Small, large, some quite clunky and old-fashioned others sleek and glinting metallically in their modernity. 
Blinking several times, I tried to come up with something to say as Elliott walked over and lifted what I recognised to be a shorn-off shotgun.  Words escaped me for the first time in my life.  Good thing he decided to explain.
“We’ve got a plan, kid.” He picked up a rag and started to rub it along the length of the barrel. 
I lifted an eyebrow.  “Plan to do what?”
Elliott sighed, glancing over at Pips who was busy making some toast.  His brother’s eyes flickered to the side then refocused on the task at hand. 
“Your cousin.  You close?”
I wasn’t sure where he was going with this line of questioning but I decided honesty was the best policy here.
“We used to be.  But, then he started going a little strange…” If you could call breaking all contact with the family and subversively trying to break the law going a little strange.
“Right,” Elliott rolled his eyes.  “Anyway, the plan is this…”
After he outlined his thoughts, I wasn’t quite sure whether I was hearing clearly, or not.  Breaking Lachlan out of the Astor didn’t sound like the genius plan that he made it out to sound.  It was definitely preferable to the only other outcome, though. 
You never wanted to lose family…

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Diamonds in the Rough – 2015 Album of the Year Nominee – Part 2

Here’s part two of my thoughts on Hawk Nelson’s Diamonds.

Thank God for Something 

“1, 2, 3, 4 count my blessings…
If you’ve got a lot or a lot of nothing 
Go ahead and thank God for something…”

A light, catchy track that starts the second half of the album in a way that reminds you to be forever grateful.  Grateful to God, no matter the season. That’s what the song is about.  After all it’s so true that we sometimes forget to thank God during our seasons of plenty; sometimes we only rely on God when we’re desperate. 

Count On You

Another punchy track with pop sensibilities espousing the fact that God is someone we can trust wholeheartedly.  Our faith is well founded when it comes to trusting in God.

Not as strong as the other tracks on the album, still one that will get you singing along to whilst thinking about the poweful lyrics.


Made to Live 

This song is anthemic.  This song is a declaration of God’s purposes for Creating us.  I can’t do anything but share the lyrics to the whole song, because they truly speak for themselves.

With every star You’ve hung up in the sky
You were leaving Your fingerprints
And when You brought my heart to life
You were leaving Your fingerprints
I know I’m here for a reason
And there’s a purpose in every season
Cause You got me, got me believing
Oh You got me, got me believing

I was made to live
I was made to live
I was made to live
For You
I was born for this
Not to just exist
I was made to live
For You

So if I could learn to love the way You do
I’ll be leaving Your fingerprints
And when I stand for what is true
I’ll be leaving Your fingerprints
And my heart it might take a beating
Sometimes this blood is for bleeding
And I know I’m here for a reason
Oh You got me, got me believing

I was made to live
I was made to live
I was made to live
For You
I was born for this
Not to just exist
I was made to live
For You

So I’ll give it all I have
Till nothing’s left
I’m not holding back
A single breath

Cause I was made to live
I was made to live
I was made to live
For You
I was born for this
Not to just exist
I was made to live
For You

Straight Line 

This song has been hard for me to pin down my thoughts on; but, I think it’s about walking the path that God has laid out for me and, at least, attempting not to stray from it. It’s about living the life that God has purposed for me; it’s about accepting Jesus and shining His light to the world.  Or that’s what I’m getting from the lyrics.

Only You 

In the materialistic world that we live in it is wonderful to be reminded that all of the things in our lives matter not.  It is only God who can fulfill us for real.  It is only God who can fix everything in this world.

‘Cause only You can fill my heart
The way You do
Only You can take what’s worn
And make it new
So I’ll take all these broken dreams
And petty things
Replace them with something that’s true
I’ll take them replace them with You


Closing thoughts

So please,
Jesus would You come close
Jesus would You come close
Jesus would You come close

And stay right here
I need You more than I know
I need You more than I know
So Jesus would You come close

I love that the album ends with a prayer to Jesus.  A prayer for Him to come close and an admission of how much He is needed.  Because that rings so true.  I need God’s love every day of my life.  
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50 Day Challenge – Day 2

Write whatever is in your head right now. 


Excuse my scatter brain thoughts.  I’m at the shops right now and thinking about not a whole lot actually.  My fingers are cold though, so it feels kind of weird typing on my phone (where I’m currently writing this post).   

There’s a long queue here and for some reason they closed most of the check outs and they had to reopen one because lots of people suddenly needed to pay for their shopping.  

My brain is tired right now. Haha.  Mum accidentally called me while she was fixing the bathroom curtain and it even left a voice message….just the sound of nothing.  Mum texted to say at least it wasn’t while she was on the toilet… Too much information?

My hands really are frozen.   Might have to start wearing gloves soon.  

Or maybe I could write with another part of my anatomy… Say…my elbow?

Write with my elbow?  Let’s see how that works on my phone…

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Did fid hahafgggeagv fos ghi God 

Bwahaha.  Typing with my elbow is fun. 

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30 Day Blogging Challenge – Days 27/28/29

Talk about your siblings

My brother turns 21 in August.  Which makes him, practically, nine years my junior.  Like me, he is adopted; however, he was actually born in Australia.  So, he’s our young ABC.  (Aussie Born Chinese for the uninitiated). 
He was 5 months old when we first met him at my Nan’s place in Melbourne.  I was 9 years of age and I don’t remember much of that first meeting, but I know I fell in love with him the moment I saw him.  I know my parents did.  
Even now, that we’re both adults, I know I love him though I don’t see him or even speak to him often. He’s my brother and I will always be there for him and pray that I will become closer to him as he gets older.  I think he’s just at a stage in life where he sees his friends, study, work etc as more important than his family.  And that’s ok.  Everyone has selfish tendencies at some point in life or other.  
I am proud of him, though.  Just found out he got the job he applied for at the bank so, very happy for him. 🙂
I also have three half-siblings that do not know I exist.  My birth mother eventually got married (not to my birth father) and had two more girls and a boy.  The eldest girl is probably in her late teens or early twenties.  Her name is Jamie Lee.  And the boy is Timmy if I recall correctly.  Can’t remember the younger girl’s name.
Part of me wishes that they knew about me, but another believes that it is better off they don’t.  I really don’t know where the future will lead in that regard.  But we’ll see.
The month you were happiest this year and why? 

I think this month, May, is the happiest I’ve ever been for several reasons.  First of all, I went on holidays with the love of my life, and got to introduce him to my Nan and my aunt (my mum’s sister).  
And then when we arrived back and I went back into work, having the sense that I’m wanted at work and actually missed made me realise again how blessed I am. My director’s exact words were, “You’re not going anywhere, we’re keeping you.”  
That feeling of being wanted and needed is in total contrast to how I was made to feel at my previous work place.
I am so grateful to God for the blessings in my life at this point in time.  And I will not take it for granted.  I will use God’s blessings to hopefully influence others for the good.  
I have that responsibility and I believe there is no more important thing than to influence little ones in a Godly way.  Their little personalities are in my hands and they are precious, each and everyone of them.  
A picture of yourself 

I’m going to share with you a photo of myself from when I was a child, and I will unpack it a bit for you. 

Here I am not long after mum and dad brought me home from Hong Kong, so circa 1988.  I was 3 years of age here.  
In the photo with me are my cousins, Peter and Jane.  Dad’s sister’s kids.  (I’m the one in the chair).  I have good memories of spending time with them as a kid, but due to circumstances beyond my control I am no longer in touch with them.  
On my trip to Melbourne I was able to get contact details for them from my Nan, so now it’s a matter of deciding what to do with that.  They have basically been estranged from us due to my dad’s sister having stopped all contact with Nan and the family.  
I firmly believe in reconciliation though, but I believe I am the one who will have to make the first step.  

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30 Day Blogging Challenge – Day 25/26

10 ways to win your heart

Take note 😉

  1. Love God
  2. Be kind, compassionate, friendly
  3. Take me to a concert
  4. Sing duets with me 
  5. Cook for me
  6. Love footy as much as me
  7. Love music
  8. Tell me you love me
  9. Spend time with me
  10. Be yourself
Wait….that sounds exactly how my boyfriend won my heart 😉
Your religious beliefs

First and foremost, I am a follower of Christ.  So, I guess that makes me a Christian.  But, being Christian is much more than having a religious belief.  Though, it does fit under the wider category of having a religious belief.  Haha.  You get what I mean.
I believe that there is only one true way to God, and that is through Jesus.  For He said, “I Am the way and the truth and the life.  No one comes to the Father except through me.”
That may sound narrow.  But, the way to God is narrow, but it is the only and best way.  
Yes, I get really deep on a Saturday mornings…so, that’s my belief in a nutshell.  Feels good saying it out loud…or at least writing it.
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30 Day Blogging Challenge – Day 23/24

Something you always think “what if…” about

Sometimes I wonder, what if I’d never grown up in the church, what would my life be like?  My life I know would probably look very different as many of my friendships revolve around the church.  My outlook on life would be different.  I would probably be strongly pro-gay; more open about how dirty my mind can get; more likely to spend my money on going to concerts…but then by the same token some things probably wouldn’t be any different.  
Music would probably be a big part of my life, I’d still be shy and outgoing all at once.  It’s something to think about at any rate….not that it would ever be a reality, hey?  The church will always be a part of who I am.
Things you want to say to 5 different people

To the online friend who WAS a friend, once upon a time

You made me who I am today and I appreciate the time we were friends because you taught me more about myself.  I’m not the person I was four years ago, and thank God for that. 
To the one who got away

I pray you find someone who will complement you the way I couldn’t.  God will bless you with the right life partner one day.
To the one who brought me into this world

I am so grateful that you decided to have me, and tried your best.  I am grateful for your courage to give me up.  I thank God for the life you gave me.  
To the family that I am no longer in contact with

I still love you guys, and I pray that one day we will be reconciled.  Not just me, but my dad and nan and everyone.
To my brother

I appreciate and love you even if we don’t talk much.  You have grown into an amazing young man, and I’m proud of you.  
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30 Day Blogging Challenge – Days 20/21/22

The last argument you had

I don’t really remember the last argument I had, which probably means it wasn’t all that important in the grand scheme of things. Knowing me, it would have been with my mum about something really pointless.  Or at least, something not worth getting all up in arms about.  
That’s probably a good thing that I don’t remember, because arguments aren’t fun.  I don’t like arguing with people because sometimes it just leaves a bad feeling inside you.  
Online I’ve gotten into “debates” about my beliefs but I don’t think they would’ve been the last arguments I’ve had.  
Something you can’t seem to get over

I’ll have to think about this one, but it should be easy really.  There are several things that tend to get to me a lot.  Even when I know I should let it go.  I think the biggest thing for me is the Creation v evolution debate.  Both sides of the line approach the debate the wrong way without understanding the other.  
And it’s something that often ends up irritating me.  
I’m a Christian.  Yes.  But I’m a firm advocate of the Theory of Evolution as it stands. We don’t know God’s ways and means.  Only He does.  Who’s to say He didn’t utilise evolution to get the bios to where it is today? 
My issue is with people who suggest that evolution has anything to do with the formation of the universe.  It doesn’t.  That’s as much science as alchemy was.  I also have a problem with the arguments  people who deny evolution come up with.  
Yes God Created everything, but you can believe that and evolution can still be true. Yes, natural selection as Darwin presented it appeared random and what not….but did you ever stop to think that maybe it only LOOKS random to our human minds?  God is infinitely MORE than us and we are not given to understand everything He has done.
Not sure if that made any sense.  It does to me.  
And in the end, it’s not important for our salvation.  
10 things about you people don’t really expect

10 things? That’s tough.
Well let’s see. 
1.  I love NRL.  It isn’t as obvious as my love for the footy so…there you have it
2. I can have quite a dirty mind.  So…not as innocent as I look and not afraid to admit that.  You should read my writing…or maybe not.
3. I don’t enjoy cooking at all.  
4.  I’m against the death penalty 
5.  I can be quite argumentative about things I’m passionate about 
6.  I enjoy some heavy metal.
7.  I swear, but don’t tell my parents lol
8.  I can be quite shy 
9. I can eat a lot
10.  I can’t think of ten things lol