Grief is a funny thing. There is no rhyme or reason to the process. Here is a list of what grief specifically looks like for me.
Hello to my readers out there. I know I have neglected posting anything for a little while. Life is full at the moment. Not so much with tangible stuff; however, personally, emotionally and medically a lot is going on. So, to fill you in with all the to-and-fro of the past month or so, here is a list of the more important moments, and thoughts that I’ve had.
It’s Thursday, the day of Throwbacks, a good day as any to reflect on my first year of marriage. We celebrated our anniversary on the weekend, a long weekend by all accounts. Tuesday was the day of our actual anniversary; the 13th of September. We went away to spend time together out of the rat race and I can tell you now it was much needed. I’ve returned to work feeling refreshed and positive about the future. A future that God is taking us to, and through. I am forever grateful for His presence in all this. Continue reading “Reflections of a Married Woman – First Anniversary “
Listening to: Encounter – Riverview Worship
Mood: Awake, content, happy
I’ve had this thought: Taking initiative is difficult for me. Unless it comes to direct interaction with the children at work. I’m more of a follower and thrive when being directed by others.
I had a big win the other day. I was settling a child to sleep, and by reading a book that he chose he eventually just dropped off to sleep. Sleep time can be difficult; the key is to remain calm and ‘low’ as it helps to settle the children down. Especially if they are still spending their energy.
I think allowing the children to make choices and to give us cues as to when they are tired and being flexible with rest times works. Rather than having strict rest times. Obviously, once we have more children that may need to be altered, but while we have low numbers and the children we have are getting used to the centre it has worked quite well.
I am still super excited about heading to work each day, and I pray that this continues. I know there will be down days; every job has that. However, I am excited for the possibilities and helping my centre grow and become everything it can be for the community it aims to serve.
This is my centre and I’m proud of where we are and where we’re heading and absolutely blessed and feel that it is such a privilege to be part of such an important journey.
I still feel I have more to offer and just need to figure out what that is. I’m not artistically inclined and sometimes it takes time for me to come up with ideas for programming, or abstract thinking. I feel that comes back to the fact that I have a ‘follow the leader’ approach to life.
Give me a task to do and I’ll set my heart and mind to it.
Being left to my own devices I often flounder and will just stick to the easy route of allowing spontaneity to ensue.
This also leads to me appearing lazy; but, I’m far from it. I’m usually just off in my own little world, which is always busy. If I could write everything that was going on in my mind on any given day, I’d probably fill pages and pages…even write a book in a day.
So, just because I may look like I’m sitting around doing nothing, doesn’t mean I’m not actively engaging with the environment I’m in.
I guess children are like that as well.
I’ve learned from experience that a child who is sitting by themselves with nothing at hand doesn’t necessarily need or want attention. Sometimes they are just processing their environment and will eventually make a decision as to what/how they want to engage.
Of course, there will come a time when some encouragement or prompting is welcomed, but this often depends on duration and other factors. But, allowing children to make their own choices is important in building independence and teaching them how to navigate their world.
It’s how they learn. It’s how we all learn.
We never stop learning and growing.
And, reflection is a big part of that. So, here’s my first one for the year. 🙂
The word that strikes fear in many a person’s heart. It seems such an uncomplicated word, yet it holds a huge amount of responsibility.
There are so many things we must commit to in our lives. From the mundane everyday things to the big commitments that come our way. We have to commit to the decisions we make; to our jobs; to the people in our lives. It’s a crazy thing, commitment.
These thoughts circle my mind as I think of my faith journey. Early this season of Lent, I made a decision to commit my thoughts and time to God and hence give up something that was taking me away from Him. However, I now realise that I don’t need to do that so restrictively to keep my focus on Him.
I think I am safe, with God’s approval, to relax a little. God knows that my heart will ever be for Him.
My commitment to God is a lifelong decision I’ve made. It may ebb and flow with the tides of life, but, nothing else really matters. I love, Jesus, God, more than any other and He will always be First for me.
My appreciation and commitment as a fan of my favourite band is something that helps me enjoy moments in my life. And, really, in the long run, all music comes from God.
(Except maybe death metal….)