What changed this month and what you hope will happen next month?
I think I will have to stop and really think about this question.
What changed this month?
I can’t really put my finger on any specifics but I believe that my outlook on my future changed this month.
The other day while my boyfriend and I were in the city (boyfriend is such a weird word, considering our ages…) he said something like ‘what am I to do with you?’ in a joking manner and I said in response, ‘make me your wife’. As soon as I said that it dawned on me how serious I really was about that.
It’s what I want. And it’s not just the whole ‘oh, you know, in the future I want to get married and have a life together and have a family together’. This is the real deal. Yes, if I’m going to be completely honest with myself, I’ve been clucky for the past two years; but, of course it was just a thought for ‘way in the future when I find the one’.
But now, it’s something I know is the path I want to go down and it’s serious and I’m not making much sense here, but there it is. There’s the change.
I want to marry my boyfriend and have a family with him. And grow old with him. And live life with him. Remembering to keep God at the centre of it all.
What I hope will happen next month?
Growth in my relationships. Maybe some more socialising with my other friends. Haha. I think I’ve been so focused on work and not being sick that all that’s kind of been pushed to the side. But, I think June will be more settled.
Looking forward to more family time too. Dad’s birthday, Mark’s dad’s birthday. The next month is looking busy.
And hopefully that all made sense. Or maybe not. My mind is all about right now. In a good way, though.